When Your Brain Is Pancake Batter

*all the parts in parentheses are supposed to be indented but the blog won't let me do it for some strange and unknown reason*

Dizzy dazes are my vice
On days when brains will melt like ice
When cognition has no hand to hold
. (A sorry state, as I’ve been told)
And so it holds fast to its own
Thoughts get lost here all alone
They wander ‘round, they slide and slip
Soupy minds can’t get a grip
They float around so lazily
While synapses fire crazily
Only to burn out too fast
. (Connections here can’t hope to last)
They fry and frazzle, run so wild
Turn a woman to a child
Who can only clutch her teddy bear
Suck her thumb and blankly stare
As life explodes before her eyes
. (The moment fantasy always dies)
And reality slaps her thinning cheek
Forces her to smile and speak
To spew the phrase, “I’m fine, just fine!”
To blink away the teary shine
There’s no time, so grab your tissues
Life won’t wait here for your issues
Sprint in time with it; don’t fight
. (Though it takes up all your might)
Catch your childish butterflies
You know quite well they’re only lies
But pretty colors dull the ache
Of a truth that even you can’t shake
Hate it, cut it; it’s still there
A biting ether in your air
Breathe it in; it’ll knock you down
. (Your pillow is your only crown)
Your fairytales, they crumbled quickly
Left behind a head that’s sickly
That can’t contain its only brain
Can only latch on the mundane
The tangible can cloud your vision
Can take the edge off sheer derision
Until you don’t know left from right
You’ll soon prefer the dark to light
Where everything blurs into one
. (Reality stands out in the sun)
You wouldn’t quite know how to feel
If you looked at what was real
It could only further melt your brain
. (You swore you wouldn’t go insane)
So hug your teddy, hold him tight
He’ll tell you things will be alright
You know better, but no matter
When your brain is pancake batter
Childish promises are all you’ve got
Better judgment amounts to naught
Soft, bright blankies serve to hide
Life’s much truer, harsher side
Here you’ll find sweet lullabies
Hidden in your butterflies
The ones that flutter in your head
While you lie awake in bed
Wondering how things got so tough
Believing used to be enough
But now it hardly helps at all
. (It can’t even break your fall)
So wish upon your star so bright
Lie down and kiss yourself goodnight
Close you eyes and hope and pray
That tomorrow you’ll finally face the day

~Kassi~